Wednesday, June 2, 2010

A House Does Not Always Feel Like A Home

I am feeling defeated, my life is totally controlled by outside forces. :-(

I am living in the best of the worst "housing" apt. that I could find on such short notice. I feel anger right now because I have no recourse but to go with the flow, keep my mouth shut and endure. I have found I am committed to another slumlord until I move again in about 2 years. It took me a week to figure this out, by observing things and neighbors talking. I can feel a depression coming on, I was so tired today, I slept all day.

My complaints are: (since nobody will liten, I will talk to myself)

1. I wrote to my landlord about certain things. I have not got a response but my neighbor said I won't, that the landlord does NOTHING! I just came from that. Ugh!

2. I think I heard a very soft doorbell (my hearing is bad) but I am not going to go all the way down the steps and open the door to who know what. If I ask who it is, I can't hear the answer. I feel like a prisoner.

3. I have not heard from housing, only know what my rent will be from calling, no appointment set for the inspection (as if that does anything) and I have not received a copy of the lease I signed from the landlord. My goodness, how irresponsible!! And bad business dealings.

4.I am upstairs and all I see are very close upstairs windows of the houses on either sides, and tree tops. I am feeling very claustrophobic, and the a/c and closed windows are not helping. I am stuck in my bed with the laptop as I have no TV and it is too cold and drafty in the living room to sit under it on the loveseat.

5. My trash can is filled with the neighbors trash and I can't even budge it. I discussed this with the neighbor and my other neighbor called the landlord. There are 3 trash cans, one for each apt. and the kids downstairs use all of them for dirty diapers.

6. The common hallway is a mess. I went out tonight and used the vacuumed but it is hard for me to do the steps and the walls are dirty and full of holes.

7. The steel doors to the apts. and downstairs to the common steps are totally dented. The labels to the apts. are made with 4 inch black lettering, looks like a factory, not a home.

8. Who ever heard of an apt. with no closet doors on the bedroom closet??? And also that is the ONLY closet It drives me nuts and I don't have hardly anything, I threw so much stuff out.

9.Who in the world puts bright blue indoor outdoor carpting in an apt????? Only a slumlord would do that! At least I have new carpeting, the girl across the hall,her carpet is a mess.

10.The apt. across the hall does not have a fire alarm and that concerns me ALOT. She is a smoker and she said she told the landlord to no avail. Also her door is off the hinge, and a bump can open it.

11. I don't have any deadbolt on my apt. door and with my hearing I need that.

12. My medicine cab is rusted inside, it needs replaced or painted and so far nobody has called, both spigots spray water at me, and the landlord took the screen out of the common hallway window and put it in the neighbors bathroom so now we can't open the window in the hallway as flies come in and it is narrow and dark and dreary and needs ventilation.

13. My refigerator is new, but so small, it is stupid!

14. The chain link fence around the property is pushed in and rusty, it is a disgrace.The gates don't close and are completely bent out of shape.

15. There is a metal table in the front yard that is filthy and low to the ground and why doesn't someone move it???? (like to the trash)

16. There is a park bench in the yard that is covered in dirt and grime and you can't even sit on it. Why? Wash it, sand it and paint it!

17. There is not one bit of storage in the bathroom, I use shelves with baskets. Why not put in a vanity? But that would be impossible with a sink that is hanging at a 45 degree angel and feels like it is going to fall off. (yes, the landlord is aware)

18.Nobody picks up trash outside anywhere except me!! What is the deal!??? The trashmen are slobs.

19. The old mailboxes were smashed so we got new horrible mailboxes and where the old ones were leaves a white area that needs painted yellow like the rest of the house. Am I the only one that sees this???

20.The kitchen cabinet door under the sink doesn't close as it needs a new magnet...swinging in the air. (yes, the landlord is aware).

This stuff is inexcusable, and I am furious. Why do landlords think they can just accept government money (everyones taxes) by renting to people in the housing system, most bums, but also some very good people who have had a tough life handed to them. Housing has very low requirements, which means the housing landlords can not do anything and still get paid, And THEY WILL GET PAID because the majority of the rent to the landlords come from "housing" and a small portion from the tenant, but if the tenant doesn't pay, they lose their housing voucher. In the real world, a landlord might lose money trying to get rent.

This is a win win situation for all housing landlords. Landlords that do accept housing usually are slumlords. I was duped by my current landlord who told me how wonderful he was and how excellent his apt. was. My caseworker vouched for him but she only knows his personality and has not seen his units.

I wish there was something I could do to make these landlords understand that some of us are good people, not druggies or bums that don't want to work because we are lazy. We could be their mothers or fathers but maybe that wouldn't matter either.

Housing landlords=not very nice people!

Another thing in this world that is sad!

Comem Jesus come!
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Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Day~Full!

I had a big day today, my first day out in a long time just to do odds and ends and visit mom in Manor Care and also Vicky, who is in town, and also visiting mom. Bob visited a while, then went to Barnes and Noble then came back after a few hours and picked Vicky up. I stayed with mom while she ate dinner.

My day started when I awoke about 9AM, I took a bath and was out of here about 10AM. I went to sign in at Holiday Hair in Bristol Commerce Center as I needed to get my hair evened up from the awful hair cut (wedgie) that I got in March. While I was waiting, I went next door to Radio Shack and got a battery for my auto key lock/unlocker for the car. I then went back and got a haircut by a girl named Colleen and it is a great haircut, I love it. It has finally grown in to almost a bob, pretty short but a style that looks the best on me and is very easily maintained.

I then went to Rite Aid (again 2 doors down) and got some nailpolish as my hands and nails were a wreck from all the moving and burns from cleaning under stove at old place. I put some on in the car and I hate it. Maybe it will work on one of my keys, that I want to mark. I have 2 keys that look alike (one for front door and one for my apt. door and I want to distinguish them apart. Oh well, maybe I will just take it back. I can't even take it off as my nail polish remover was thrown out during the move. I have to get some more. I then went to my car and it wasn;t a bad battery afterall, something is wrong with the auto lock system so I took the battery back to radio Shack for a refund. He checked the battery (old and new) and they were both good, so I will have to talk to John about it. I really really miss my white car but I like the "smallness" of my red one.

I then started up to Manor Care to visit mom. I had called Vicky last night and told her I would be there about 2PM. I stopped on the way at Friendly's to get a Fishamajig and an orange slushie. It was not as good as I remembered it 20 years ago. Also it was lunch time and with my hearing aids and all the people it drove me nuts as my aids ampilify. Never again! I had worked at Friendly for the Christmas help in Oxford Valley mall in 1976, I still wanted it to be the same but as they say, "You can't go home or to Friendly's again".

After that I went to JC Penneys to look at a chair I saw online (Logan Rocker Recliner). I liked it alot and it was really comfortable. I ordered it. It was $599, on sale for $299, but by the time I paid for tax, delivery charge and scotch guard 5 year protection warranty it came to $422 and change. Also if I wanted the brown color that was displayed I could have gotten it next week but I looked at the sample materials and I wanted Sage so it will take 6-8 weeks. I put it on my charge and I am getting a rent rebate of $492 in July and I will pay it off. I feel good about it, it is a great chair and I will use it alot watching TV etc. When the chair comes, soon after I will get my TV hooked up, but not until then. I want it for the Fall shows. I also want a Table- Mate for my laptop so I can stop sitting in bed with pillows which is not the most comfortable thing in the world. I really don't like Summer at all, I hate a/c but glad I have it as it is hot! Today was hot but with a breeze. Vicly said there was a horrible storm at Mom's but I only got sprinkles where I was. JC Penneys was overwhelming to me. They were renovating plus there was just so much stuff. I had sensory overload. I have always hated shopping, I don't make decision well as I like too many things and it is all too brain taxing to me. I never even made it out to the mall, but being in Penneys was the first I had been to the OV Mall in about 20 years. I don't do malls!! A shopper I am not. Any kind, anywhere!

Finally got to Manor Care to visit mom. Vicky had arrived about 20 minutes before. I have to say walking into the nursing home part, the smells and knowing my mom was there (even if she was in the Rehab part) I had an incredible wave of sadness come over me. I have worked in so many nursing homes and although I always treated everyone with such respect and dignity, it just brought home to me more that I was caring for someone's mother or father. My mom was now at that age. It was truly an eye opening experience, even more so than the last time she was there. When she first came she was in another part of the place, with the sick people, but thank God a room opened up to where she was before and she feels more confortable as she has a huge lounge area with TV etc. that she sits in all day.

I had a nice visit with mom and Vicky, showed them some photos that I took with my new camera that I still I have to read on how to work it and we talked and talked. Mom looked great but seeing her in a wheelchair broke my heart. I didn't let on my feelings but I was heartbroken. When dinner came and I wheeled her to the table and sat with her while she ate (wonderful food by the way), it was all so surreal. I wanted to be young again and I wanted my mom to be young again and be more self sufficient. I asked to see her room so I left and looked at it, she didn't go. It was really nice and large with a great TV but she doesn't like to be in the room, she says it is depressing. I read her cards, I was sad.

During the visit, I met Violet, Mom's roomate that is moving to Lamont. A very nice lady that Mom and I will visit when she gets settled. She was funny and sweet. I am happy for her, she is starting over with new furniture. She lives in Foxwood Manor now and she said it is very depressing. Violet told me that they changed the age requirements to get on the list for Lamont from 62 years old to 55 years old. It looks like after me, as I get older, some young ones will come along. It is weird to think by then I will be about 70 so 55 will seem young.

I could tell Vicky just couldn't understand what it would be like to be under the control of the government for your needs. I realy wonder sometimes how she would have handled my life. I just don't think she would have adapted as well as I have. I have not liked my situation at all but I always felt grateful for any help I received and somehow I am still alive and kicking living in the best of the worst in the housing system. I can't wait for 2 more years, not for the moving process, but to live in a clean, safe place with a laundry. It will feel so nice.

We had mom laughing talking about what I wanted of hers and we told her she has 2 years to empty the 2 dressers in the junk room as I want to paint them in there and want to take them to Lamont. They are really made well. I also want to paint my headboard that was once Kathi's, that I don't like as it is too low, anyway, I want to paint it white to match the furniture. It will be nice to see Violet's place before hand so I can plan, it will keep me dreaming of better things to come. I hope mom stays alive to see me finally settled but only if she is okay herself. She says she feels stronger but she is in no rush to leave Manor Care, as she wants to go home as strong as she did last time, but as she ages that will be harder. But also she was not as sick as she was before.

I was getting very tired and still had a long drive home so I left about 6:30PM. The traffic was great and I zoomed right home. I was going to stop and get my prescriptions and a couple groceries but only made the grocery part and then had to go to the bathroom so bad I had to come home. I will go get the prescriptions tomorrow and maybe do some laundry. I plan on visitng mom again on Thursday.

I felt bad that mom said she was bored on Memorial Day weekend as there wasn't any therapy, Janice left for vacation and Vicky was in NYC at a wedding so then I really felt sad!!! I had wished I went to visit her, but I just had to keep going. It was only on Thursday that I turned over the apt. to Frank. I just assumed someone would be there. She read a Danielle Steele book and says she really doesn't like company as it is tiring, but I could tell she loved having Vicky and I there, she always loves being with her girls.

Mom did say they had entertainment when Vicky was visiting on Monday for the Holiday. They had some country music and dancers and root beer floats, so that was nice. Mom has no idea when she will come home. Her roomate was suppose to go home last week, then changed it to this Wed, then changed that to this Friday. They make sure you are okay when you are going home to live indepentently.

I had a nice day but very reflective. It is so hard to watch your parents get old. So very hard!!

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Monday, May 31, 2010

Memorial Day 2010

Today is Memorial Day and I have spent a lot of time today as I do everyday thinking about the brave men and women who have given their life to their country so that we may have Freedom.

My dad fought in WW2, luckily he came home, but my mom said that he never talked about the War. I know I have never known him to either, but then again I would have a hard time hearing the stories so close to home.

There is always a war going on somewhere and rumors of more wars to come. The big ones now are Iraq and Afganastan and so many kids, (yes, kids) have lost their lives in these 2 wars. Many people think Iraq was not a war that we should have entered, the motto to the left liberals are "It is Bush's fault". I think Bush always made his decisions after much counsel and prayer and I will always stand by him. I think he is morally sound man.

I am anxious to read Laura Bush's new book and then Ex President Bushes book when it comes out. I think when people read it, they might understand why and how he came to his decisions.

I don't think Obama has wise counsel and I also think he is a very dangerous man and does not like America. I shudder at what our country has become under his administration and I hope he leaves office soon.

Obama's lack of support for our troops is troubling and if you don't like America, one can't support the troops.

I hope people stopped to say a prayer for the fallen while they were eating their hot dogs and hamburgers.

I am disgusted by the fact that so many of the troops have no support system to come home to when they are honorly discharged.

It appears that no matter what the circumstance is, if you don't make it home or if you do, it is never enough, and your sacrifice is soon forgotten.

The USA has changed and the people living here are changing too and not for the better.

Sad!
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Sunday, May 30, 2010

Television-Now and Then!

I am taking the Summer off from TV, too many reruns and too expensive. Comcast wants $60+ just to hook it up. I will wait until the Fall Season starts.

Imagine this, in the olden days, once you bought a TV, then watching the TV was free!! My dad use to say that buying a good TV was the best and cheapest form of entertainment. Before he died cable started and it was $9 a month and he had a fit. Before that it was TV antennas on the roof. I can still remember when a storm would blow the antenna around and my dad would crawl up on the roof and he would twist and turn it while we would yell up the fireplace to him when the reception got good again on the TV. It was then he could stop and come down. HA! The good ole' days.

I started to think about my TV viewing habits that I have had all my life and half I can remember and half I can't, but long running shows during the years that I always watched are as follows in no particular order, to me, they were "must see TV" at the time:

Trapper John
Marcus Welby, M.D.
St. Elsewhere
Dr. Kildare
Ben Casey
ER
Cagney and Lacey
Sonny and Cher
The Lennon Sisters Variety Hour with Jimmy Durante
Carol Burnett Show
Saturday Night Live (in the early years only)
Tonight Show with Johnny Carson (I so miss this show!)
Merv Griffin Show
Mike Douglas Show
Dinah Shore Show
Roseanne
I Love Lucy
The Brady Bunch
Friends
The Andy Griffiths Show
Mary Tyler Moore
Rhoda
Honeymooners
Burns and Allen
The Patty Duke Show
The Donna Reed Show
Father Knows Best
The Beverly Hillbillies
Alfred Hitchcock
The Twilight Zone
Art Linkletter Show (loved the kids)
Queen For A Day (thinking back, what a sick show!)
Match Game
Tattletales (fav were the Newharts and the Martins)
Password (the original)
Family Feud (the original)
The Jack Benny Show
Dean Martin Variety Hour
Ed Sullivan
American Bandstand
Bob Newhart Show (both)
Twin Peaks
Thirty Something
Howdy Doody
Micky Mouse Club
Leave It To Beaver
Ozzie and Harriet
Mr. Rogers Neighborhood (with the kids)
Sesame Street (with the kids)
The Electic Company (with the kids)
TV Movies Of The Week (early ones on Tuesdays)
The Sunday Night Movie Of The Week (theater movies)
American Idol
Ugly Betty
So You Think You Can Dance
Dancing With The Stars
Criminal Minds
Brothers and Sisters
Deadliest Catch
Glee
Cold Case
Design Star
Food Network Star
All documentaries on PBS and other channels


Shows that were very popular but somehow I didn't watch, don't know why:

I Dream Of Jeanie
Hogans Heros
Chicago Hope
MASH
Bonanza
Gunsmoke
Sopranos (no HBO)
Sex and The City ( subject matter offensive)

No matter what, the old shows were the best, the old commercials were the best, the black and white shows were great for using your imagination, it was all family oriented and I just loved it all, pure entertainment.

( I am sure I am missing many so I will keep a running tab and edit as I think of them, it is fun to remember the shows that made you smile way back when..)

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Sounds Of Music

Well, American Idol is over of another year. This was the 9th year and actually it was the first time I missed the Final as I don't have a TV yet. I had watched "online" the performances from the night before sung by the top 2, Crystal and Lee. During the Final I was reading a live blog of the show and someone had asked if the show was being streamed somewhere online and lo and behold it was! So I clicked the link and there I was, at the final. Now of course the HD was not present, but oh well! I only missed the first 20 minutes and I can find those performances online at You Tube.

This year American Idol just didn't excite me like it should. I usually become so involved in the excitement of the contestants realizing their dreams are coming true. There are a couple reasons I was not as into it this year. One, I was very stressed and in the middle of moving during the last month of the show. I have never liked the "auditions" as I feel they exploit people who don't understand what they sign on the dotted line and they don't "get it" that AI can twist things using mentally unstable people and use it to their advantage. I find that sickening! I also feel like AI is feeding into the many crazies who DO know what they are doing and hoping for their 15 minutes of fame. I also don't think they should use so many hard luck stories, it is about talent. So, the last month, due to the unexciting talent this year, I was just not that invested in the contestants. I felt like I didn't know them. They were all so scared and the themes are repeated so much it is getting redundant. I was a Siobahn fan, the quirky Cape Codder until she started to scream at me with every song. I also agree that she didn't artistically know who she was, she has only done hard rock in clubs and theater in her schools and community. She was not a Hard Rocker type but I could see her doing Broadway, but not being a huge mainstream success.

With DWTS beating AI this year due to the good contestants on DWTS and the mediocre on AI, American Idol MUST step up their game. Fox could have a gold mine all year if AI gets revamped as they have SYTYCD in the Spring/Summer, Simon Cowell's new X-Factor in the Fall/Winter and American Idol in the Winter/Spring. All shows that people love, the audience loves to see people improve and succeed. American Idol it seems is getting too rehearsed. The judges pimp a contestant that they want to win and won't let go. Their Adam didn't win last year and their Crystal didn't win this year, as the majority of power voters are young girls and grandmothers and the young want "cute boys" and the Grannies want "clean cut and good role models". I am happy to see that Lee won this year. He appears very humble, very appreciative and I think he will improve when he gets more experience and gets over the nerves. He is a very likable guy. Crystal, on the other hand was not someone that "kids" would get. She was old school and the kids of today don't know that music. I happen to love her folk rock sound, but even I tired of it as I soon felt everything sounded the same.

I wish my hearing was better as I would love music like I use to, but it is difficult now. The car radio sounds tinny, the ear phones sound tinny and the TV Ears sound tinny so I am never hearing the right tones but in my head I try to like what I hear. When I was growing up, as a little lass, I loved all the stuff my mom and dad use to play. I remember my dad would blast the music and lay by the Hi-Fi. (yep, it was called a Hi-Fi). My dad loved Jazz and he would blast Louis Armstrong, Erroll Garner (on the piano), Ella Fitzgerald and so many others. I also remember big bands and Frank Sinatra and I love that kind of music. I love me some Frank. My mom loved show tunes but I didn't like musicals of any kind. I never understood how in the middle of nowhere people would burst into song. My toddler son Michael would go over to his Grandmom's and always want her to play "Oliver", I don't have a memory of this, she told me later in life. I was exposed to music all my life due to my parents love of music. There was not a free concert within 10 miles that they would miss.

When I got to be a teenager, again the music was so diverse and I loved it all. There was the radio station WIBG that everyone listened to. There was a record shop down at the Levittown ShopARama on the corner and every week it was so exciting to get the new paper of the top 99 songs that were topping the charts and then they would have all the 45's of the chart toppers, plus albums of course. This was before the digital age, much better music, the vinyl records sound so much better than CD's and I-tunes and this is told to me by people that CAN hear. How I loved to grab the yellow paper off the pile of Top 99 papers. When WIBG played the songs you could look at see how it placed on the chart that week and of course they announced it too. This was so much a part of my Junior High and High School years.

We were the generation of Elvis, Motown and of the British Invasion, most of all The Beatles. We were the generation when American Bandstand was at its peak and the regulars on the show were celebrities and written up in teen magazines like "Tiger Beat" and "16". My all time crush when I was a teenager was Paul Anka and I still love him today. I met him at the Steele Pier in Atlantic City and he signed my arm and my sneaker after the show. My parents took me down to AC to see him. I also went to American Bandstand once, hoping to get in and I did! It was in Philly, looked so big on TV but was real tiny. Marvin Gaye was the guest, there was one guest every day. My "regular dancer" crush was Richie Cartledge and when I saw him in person he was sooooo cute. I was so jealous of his regular dance partner Gina. HA! It is amazing how safe the city was then. In 7th grade my friends and I were going into the city alone.It was a whole other time and one I miss terribly.

Moving along into the 1970-80's, my favorite music was Fleetwood Mac, Pink Floyd, Mamas and Papas (some of these groups were earlier but timeless), John Denver, The Carpenters, Linda Ronstandt,James Taylor,Jackson Brown, Peter,Paul and Mary, Carly Simon and just about anything that came out and became popular. There were many 1-hit wonders that came and disappeared. There were fads like Chubby Checker and The Twist. Everyone learned to dance by watching American Bandstand, they were the trendsetters and they made up the dances and just started doing them and soon the world would follow. People could sing then, they didn't have the over processed music of today and the lyrics were nice and not raunchy. The music of today leaves me cold, except for Country which is still pretty much full of God and America. I never like the drinking beer songs, can't relate to them, I was never a drinker or a partier, nobody I hung with was. Just the hoodlums in leather jackets were the beer drinkers, I guess, I don't know. I don't remember ever seeing a beer bottle or hard liquor among my teenage group of friends or aquaintances EVER, up to when I graduated.  I was the last generation before the drugs, sexual revolution and women's lib. I wish I could transport myself back to that time. Then came Viet Nam, drugs and chaos and lots of friends being drafted and killed. This happened about 1968-1969. My kids were born on the cusp, in 1967-1968. It was still a nice time.

Back to American Idol. What can they do to revamp it!!?? I have my ideas. I have been very impressed with Bret Michaels and I loved seeing him on the Finale with Casey James (what a cutie Casey is) and I think he would make an excellent judge. I don't watch Celebrity Apprentice as I can't stand DT but I did watch a video of his speech on the Final and I thought he was so sweet. I don't know much about his music. I don't know much about the hard rock, hair bands etc. of the 1980's. I know my son use to blast his music but I turned a deaf ear. I was already deaf so that wasn't hard. Now I realize that one of his favorite bands was Lynard Skynard and I fell in love with them with Bo Bice. They really took Bo under their wing, but I never saw a group with such tragedy.

OK, so Bret Michael's in the judges seat (it would be less stressful than touring and traveling) with his health issues. The audtions start in August and end in Sept. then they come back to Hollywood week in December, then they are not seen live with the judges until Feb-May, so it leaves enough time for him to do other things. I am not going to miss Simon. He was rude, always talked during performances and his ego overshadowed the contestants. I would like Randy replaced with Lionel Ritchie, then my 2nd choice would be Jamie Fox, but I don't think Randy's contract is up. I don't like Obama loving leftie Jamie's politics but I think he is a great mentor and he would be a great judge. I am so tired of Randy's limited vocabulary, DAWG, YO, YO, BABY, NOT DOING IT FOR ME, IT WAS JUST OKAY......blah, blah! I like Randy as a person but his judging is so repetitious. Next is Kara!! I think she is a good songwriter but she grates on my last nerve. Her hanging on Simon this year was so childish, it was like "I am going to suck up to the cool dude" and then everyone will love me. I do agree with her analysis of the singers connecting to what they are singing. That comes from her songwriting experience. You can't sing a happy song with a frown and you can't sing a sad song with a smile. Also, I agree you have to know what you sing. A 16 year old singing about a lost love, unless it is "Puppy Love" like Paul Anka doesn't make much sense. Anyway she should go, I would not miss her. I would like to see Shania Twain take her place. I like Ellen on there. I think she has a great purpose in that she is coming from the mind of the consumer, and nobody loves and knows music like Ellen. Also, everybody loves Ellen, period! She has really pushed these kids careers since day 1, by having them on her show, plus also any other AI interesting personalities. She tries to help, and I just read that she just started her new record label and her first sign is a 12 year old kid she found on You Tube. Good for her. Kara's contract I think is year to year. At least the first year was, not sure now. Ellen's is 5 years and she has in her contract that she must approve who takes Simon's place. As far as the judges go, I would like it to be Bret, Shania, Ellen, Lionel or Jamie. (actually I like only 3 judges but I want Ellen to stay soooo)

As far as the host goes I think Ryan carries the show well, and he makes it look easy so that indicates he is great at his job. He connects well to the contestants and I think the hardest part he must do is follow the EP instructions and do the eliminations in sometimes a cruel way. I like that he has a radio show that follows up on AI the next day.  I like Ryan alot.

Ricky Minor, the bandleader is leaving this year too. During the Season 9 Finale they never even acknowledged him and that to me was sad. He will do well on Jay Leno. Nigel would have never slighted him, Nigel was cool and it goes to show you that when Nigel left for SYTYCD, AI lost ratings. Anyway, they now need a bandleader and I loved Harry Connick, Jr. when he was on AI, bringing his band and doing the arranging of the songs. What a great personality and so much fun. All past and present contestants have high praise for Ricky Minor and his help with arranging, in fact Adam Lambert really sang his praises last year so this is a huge void to fill and I think HCJ would be perfect. The contestants spend all day on Mondays with the band, arranging and then rearranging so since HCJ did such an outstanding job this year, I say bring him on full time next year. Again, Harry would still have time to do other things. Ellen does a show and AI, so the others can too.

About the themes, they either have to change them or PLEASE put out the bucks to clear more songs. Now that AI is going on 10 years old, the repeats are horrendous and everyone just compares, compares and compares some more to their favorites of previous years. They must CLEAR more songs and sometimes that cost money as you have to pay off the record label, the songwriter, the artist, etc. That is why all the previous Idols hits are cleared immediately as 19 owns them and it is part of their contracts. Some people aren't signed by 19 though, like Elliot Yamin, one of my all time favorite contestants and such a talent and good man, a huge heart.

I am not sure about the mentors, some are okay and some are blah. To tell you the truth, I loved it when Adam Lambert mentored, as he is a true performer, well sometimes, that one performance was disgusting. But, I like him, he is a kind man. He learned his lesson that people were turned off by his sexual innuendos. NOT NEEDED ADAM! Adam would never give up his career but he would be good. His performances during his year were top notch and really thought out. I LOVED "Mad World" and I could watch it over and over.

While we are at it, I think AI could use another Executive Producer. Ken Warwick is not getting the job done without Nigel and to sweeten the pot I think they should offer HCJ the job of co-EP and bandleader.

Lee and Crystal have already been signed by 19, and I also think they will sign Casey. I also think they will sign Aaron to their Country Label. Slim pickins' this year for signing. Season 5 was the big year for signs and Daughtry, Kellie and Bucky have done them good. Katharine MePhee and Taylor Hicks not so much and yet I just read that Taylor made $3 million dollars this year. Compare that to Carrie who made close to $20 million last year during a non-touring year so this year will be much more as she is touring non stop, had a special on TV, did a movie, a few TV shows, many covers of mags, etc. and is a spokesperson for Pedigree and a few other sponsers. She will make much more this year and she hasn't changed at all. I love the guy she is marrying, a born again Christian who walks the talk. I just wish Carrie would stop with the hair extensions and her rocker tight clothes that aren't Country. I love the real Carrie persona and not the performer Carrie persona, too trashy for me. She always claims there is 2 of her, the performer and her real life but I don't see the need for them to be so drastically different. Her sweet, kind and giving personality with good morals transcends either way so why the hair and clothes??? That is just me, put on a dress, cowboy boots and have your hair natural with the country songs and with the country pop, go more drastic but stop with the rocker image, it is not flattering. My opionion only, but actually many others too, I read everything.

I like the idea that this year they are looking at auditions at an American Idol set up on My Space, when the time comes. I hate the audition process, most don't get through the 1st round, to move on to the EP, then to the judges and they lose many good people. AI really need to have an eye out for the best talent that will become huge superstars before Simon's show gets that 1st year excitement push. Alot of Simon fans will follow him and I am looking forward to it myself, even though I am not a Simon fan. I just don't want American Idol to go away due to bad ratings.  I want it to make changes and flourish and become what it once was before they started manipulating the viewers. They have to play fair and square, find good talent, change the voting, have great people surrounding the contestants who truly want the best for them and then let the public decide what they want. Let's start out with an even playing field, no pimping.

Music has to change, the hip hop, raunchy lyrics, etc. has got to change. It is not good for the kids of today and American Idol has a good platform to create a great fanbase and good morality with songwriting and lyrics. I love Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood, Elliot Yamin, Kellie Pickler, Kris Allen, David Cook, Bucky Covington, Josh Gracin, they are all such good role models. Chris Daughtry is good but I am not into his type of music. Danny Gokey went country and is touring with Sugarland, great move. I like Adam and Allison but not my type to listen to. I really just listen to Country and watch the Country videos. Mandisa and Melissa went contemporary Christian. Jordin Sparks is adorable, but I don't listen to their music per se. I only own albums by Carrie, Kellie and Elliot. I love Elliot's blusey voice. Elliot's performance of "A Song For You" is to die for, by Donny Hathaway.

I am sure not an authority on music and the public are the ones who vote and I am wondering if a girl can win this show again as the teenage girls are nutso with their text votes. Vote for the cute guy is their motto!! I read the AI message boards and the mentality of the voters are very young. The teenagers love to watch this show with their grandmothers and those are the voters and even though only a handful posts on AI message boards I think they are indicative of what is out there voting. Then there are the casual voters who are very fair and vote each week according to best performance. That is the way it should be done and pushes the contestants each and every week.

The whole voting system needs revamped, but as long as ATT is AI's sponser it won't be. ATT wants those text votes, it is money in their pocket. I love the voting system of DWTS. You have as many votes as there are contestants. During Top 12 week on AI that would mean that you have 12 votes from each phone # and online. If DWTS can do it so can AI. Also that would give a fair advantage when they pick the Top 24 in the beginning. These kids pick a cute boy during the auditions and then form fan clubs before the Top 24 is even picked. If their boy is eliminated, they pick another cute boy. If they want to make money this nonsense has to stop. Look at how many Idols have not made them a boatload of stash. The top 3 would be Kelly, Carrie and Daughtry.

I am somewhat embarrassed that I have put this much thought into American Idol. I really don't think about it that much, I am just thinking out loud right now as I write it all down.

Now on with Season 10, I am anxious to hear the changes and see what happens after the lackluster Season 9.

Friday, May 28, 2010

I Am A Serial Mover!

Last night as I was trying to calm my mind during this latest moving process, I started to think about how many times I have moved in my life. There were many reasons for all these relocations. Some were because my parents moved and took me along, some because of financial difficulties and some because I was always trying to find the right fit. All I know is that when I was moving without my parents doing the packing, it was very difficult, stressful and a nightmare. I usually had to gravel for help from unknown persons and money was always tight. I was in bad health for as long as I can remember, making working very difficult and later in life not possible at all. I started ticking off the places I have lived and it is really crazy that this has been my life as I know it and that I have survived such stress under very difficult conditions.



Places I have lived: (in chronological order)



1. Broad Street-Jersey Shore, Pa.

2.West Maple Ave.-Langhorne, Pa.

3. Greenbrook Drive-Levittown, Pa.

4. Penndel Court Apts.-Penndel, Pa.

5.Camelot Apts.-Levittown, Pa.

6.Orangewood Park Apts.- 65 Thomas Place-Levittown, Pa.

7.2nd Ave. -Bristol, Pa.

8.Magnolia Drive-Levittown, Pa.

9.Towns Rd.-Levittown, Pa.

10.Millcreek Parkway-Levittown, Pa.

11.Middletown Trace Apts.-Langhorne, Pa.

12.Crystal Rd.-Levittown, Pa.

13.Edgely Rd.-Bristol, Pa.

14.Bristol Pike-Levittown, Pa.

15.Dorilyn Terrace Apts.-Langhorne, Pa.

16.Woodbourne Apts.-Levittown, Pa.

17.Bristol Pike-Croydon, Pa.

18.Chatham Rd.-Morrisville, Pa.

19.Korman Suites-Bensalem,Pa.

20.83 Greenbrook Drive (Apt.) Levittown, Pa.

21.Allaire Rd. -Spring Lake, NJ

22.Orangewood Park Apts.-66 Patricia Lane-Levittown,Pa.

23.Radcliffe Street- Bristol, Pa.

24.Washington Street- Bristol, Pa.

25. On waiting list for Lamont Plaza...last place, can't wait!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Where Do I Begin?

May 2010, I will always remember as one of utter turmoil but also one of God given strength. I am still in the process of a huge life changing event and sometimes I feel it will never end.

On May 1, 2010 I was trying to fix a stuck drain in my bathroom sink. The day/week was very hot and humid and all I could smell was rotten wood/mold and I was in a mood as I have been fighting this losing battle for years. I immediately went to the phone and called my "very hostile" landord and complained to him and told him he must fix the mold problem or I was going to call the Board of Health. I also called the Boro inspector who acted like I committed a felony and finally decided to send out a kid to find the problem. The kid came, said he was in a terrible rush and decided he couldn't do anything without a key to the basement in which the landlord must be present. He said he would make an appt. with the landlord to meet him to try to find the source of the problem. The source of the problem is in the basement, full of mold, as told to us whom live in the building by a utility worker that the basement was not inhabitable. So much for inspectors, I have not heard from them since, nor have I tried to contact them as I have been too busy.

Why have I been busy? Because my landlord put a letter under my door on May 2, 2010, that he was not going to renew my month to month lease and I was to vacate the premises as of the end of the month. Now mind you that the end of the month was Memorial Day weekend so in essence I did not receive a proper 30 day notice. I have been living at this place for 4 1/2 years, first year under a year lease and month to month after that. The apt. looks okay when just looking at it at a glance, sorta charming and on a historical street in a small town BUT don't look too closely. It is downright scary. I guess my landlord didn't want to take care of the mold issue, easier for him to rid the place of tenants than of mold.

I am under the housing umbrella. I was a nurse all my life and became disabled and my income qualifies me for housing help. I worked many nursing agency assignments and they didn't take taxes out, I paid my own Federal and State taxes but I didn't think about Social Security. My bad!
I didn't put much into SS so I am not getting much back, thus the low income. When you have a "housing voucher" it is slim pickin's when looking for an apartment. You have to find a landlord that will accept a voucher and most landlords that do that want to get paid, but have very low standards. The complexes are drug infested. It is a scary situation.

In 14 days, I looked at a jillion apts. and turned them down, and finally found the best of the worst plus packed and moved! I am thankful everyday that I am not homeless. I moved 2 streets over and it doesn't matter if you move 2 streets over or across country, the headaches are the same. When one is "in the system" address changes alone can take days and most take making a phone call. Phone calls are my nightmare as I am mostly deaf and can only hear with the use of 2 hearing aids and speaker phone. Then it is still "iffy" and I get all confused with the menus as I can't hear them properly. I think I am done with the address changes (over 20 of them) except for TV Guide and I am not getting my TV hooked up for the Summer, as it is too expensive for reruns plus I need a couch. I got rid of my sofa bed as it was fading, very heavy and was the most uncomfortable piece of furniture that was ever made and I wasn't going to have people move this HUGE and HEAVY couch up a narrow stairway when I despised it.

Somehow, don't ask me how, but with God's help, He brought people into my life to help me move. I am now her in my new place and I still am unpacking and I am so tired of being on the go for an entire month. They say that moving is one of the biggest stressors in life, and to add to it all, my mom was taken to the hospital on my actual moving day and is now in rehab. She is 86 years old and I have been so busy and she is so tired that we mainly talk on the phone and I have not visited her. I spent the day at the hospital after I moved in the morning well into the evening, but that was all. I was so drained. My neighbors were such a big help, especially Penney, she was an angel sent from God. Georgia was also very helpful and supportive. Everyone who helped me sure got alot of pickings of things I was getting rid of, and money was flying out of my pockets for many things. Everytime I turned around, I needed money which I didn't have. It was hard, but people have it so much worse, who am I to complain?

I am trying to make this place homey. I have huge pictures and small furniture, after getting rid of things nothing seems to be on scale when decorating but it will have to do. I am on the waiting list for Lamont Apts. (subsidized housing) and they are real nice, less than 1o years old with elevators and washers/dryers. I will feel like I live in a palace. The waiting list is 3-4 years and I have waited a year already so I am just biding my time here. Hopefully when I move, I can start over with new furniture. I can honestly say that most of what I brought here I was only thinking 3 years down the road and then I will get rid of this stuff too. My bed, my hutch, my TV, a few pictures, not much else will be going with me to the new place. I will search the classifieds for tables etc. and buy new anything that has "material" as I don't know what is in that "material". For here, I might look for a used leather small couch or chair at Salvation Army that I can Lysol down.

Ok, I vacated my old place and did a walk-thru with my old landlord Frank. He was ridiculous with the things he wanted me to do that were normal wear and tear. I had him read off the list of deductions that would take away from receiving my security rent back and went out and bought a digital camera and took photos galore. I have wanted a digital for a long time as I now have a grandson and I also would love to get creative and take pictures of things and people that I find interesting.

I will probably have to take my landlord to small claims court but my dream is to see him lose and him have to refund me my security deposit in full as he is a mean man, a schemer and a slumlord. I will let a judge decide and fight him if I get a "deductions" list from Frank within the next 20 days as required by law.

I am tired, I am sore, I am disillusioned that there are people like my landlord that exist, that take advantage of the people who need a break, all in the name of money. That is very sad to me.

In the end, everyone must face God!